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Why God Why Me

Below is a link to hear the message and here are my notes to the teaching: http://sermon.net/melissaphillips/sermonid/1199973982

  • Why was I made?
  • Why did this happen to me?
  • Why do I feel the way I feel?
  • Why don’t you release me from pain?


If God answered the question would it change the past?

Would it change how you feel pain?

Would it still have the same effects of the tragedy?

The real questions is NOT “WHY” BUT we want to know  is “God are going to help me, take care of me,  be with me even if I don’t understand the “why” or know “why”

Why did that happen?  Why was I made this way?  Just because I don’t look like someone else doesn’t make us wrong.  As humans we compare ourselves to other people in looks, living, status… etc.

I HAVE HAD MY “WHY” MOMENTS… when Bryson was born prematurely – when things happened to my own children, my own family, my own life.

We can’t figure out God. BUT  we can we get to a point in our life to where we live by his promises and not demand explanations.  DOES IT DELIGHT THE DEVIL WHEN WE QUESTION GOD “WHY”

Heard it was a sin to ask God why… but to ask what can I learn from this.

Should we get to a time when we stop asking God ‘why’ AND be thankful the way God is with you and you have Him to lean upon.  The “whys” must become a map in our brain of trusting God.

We can prevent wasting days of confusion. Author of confusion is devil= waste time – reasoning strongholds – analytical thinking (lack of faith thinking)

Fact number one: When the brain changes the mind changes….

Fact number two:  What flows through the mind sculpts the brain….. road map

Fact number three:  You can use your mind to change your brain to change your mind for the better.


Neuroplasticity occurs inside us everyday as we encounter new experiences. Picture is the circuitry in the brain. From the left – newborn, then a 3 month old, 15 month old, and 2-year-old. As the child ages, their brain’s wiring becomes more complex and interconnected.

Neuroplasticity is what allows us to take our experiences, then learn from them and form new memories. Huge changes are occurring in the brain during these early stages of cognitive development under 7yrs old, but the truth is that our neural networks continue to build on each other until the day we die.  (before they thought brain stopped at 7) By changing our experiences we can actively reshape our brains.

Left frontal cortex = more positive emotions – puts stop on negative emotions (stress- release cortisol that destroys the brain = can lose that part of the brain enable to form new memories

New synapses form.  Like trees with branches connect.  GET THICKER creates road maps throughout our brain.

  • Our thoughts can change the structure and function of our brains. The science is called neuroplasticity. It has the power to change its own structure.  Repetitive positive thought and positive activity can rewire your brain and strengthen brain areas that stimulate positive feelings.
  • stimulates the growth of nerve connections.
  • improves cognition by increasing mental productivity.
  • improves your ability to analyze and think.
  • affects your view of surroundings.
  • increases attentiveness.
  • leads to more happy thoughts.
  • Your thoughts form your character, how you operate in the world, how far you travel mentally, physically, and spiritually. You are what you think you are, and all of your actions proceed from thought. Your inner thoughts will always be reflected in your outer circumstances, because self-generated changes in your life are always preceded by changes in the way you think about something.
  • If we rest our attention on negative we actually destroy parts of our brain.  Habits usually play to our negative but disciplines and creativity create the positive. Even mental diseases/disorders such as bipolar, skizoph, phobias, ocd, can be changed.

Worry: anxious until corrected: If you act on the symptom or dwell on it creates a snowball effect, therefore we have to change our thoughts.  We can create rigid habits…. Snow on a hill…. Changeable.  Build up and thicker  – harder to change…..  do opposite of what you feel with your emotions to create the right thing to do…. Lose weight=get out of habits, educate yourself……  OR WHEN YOU GET INTO THE WHY GOD QUESTIONS….

Why questioning can make us doubt God – enemy doesn’t want you to TRUST GOD FOR YOUR LIFE.

GOD always doesn’t want US to know the Why, God just wants us to trust him… we must get to a place where we mentally just know God is going to take care of the situation even if we don’t understand.

To get a result we must ask the “why” question.

Why was humans made? – worship God!  Everything we do should always point or lead us in the direction to worship God – however the world and the enemy was us to focus on self.

The Why produces a result:

In Staff:  Volunteering – ask yourself the “why” to grasp the results…

We greet – why: makes people feel loved and welcome/safe

We do we come to church – consistency – why: fellowship and faith

We teach giving – why: keeps the church’s doors open, furthers the gospel and opens heavens for you

“Why stage” as a child

Then there are the “Why” questions we all ask ourselves – why does God let bad things happen to good people… “Why does a baby get cancer” Why does death come at such a hard time, why do people suffer, why are there child slaves…..  again asking the question why as a child coming to the Father is not wrong, it is a question children have done for years…. (Because I said so!)

There was a level of trust when you don’t know the ending in mind!

LIFE’S DIFFICULTIES: Why am I going through this?

In the Bible:  In Psalms, we find the psalmist raising this question from time-to-time when a difficult trial had come into their life.

Habakkuk 1

2How long, O LORD, must I call for help? But you do not listen! “Violence is everywhere!” I cry, but you do not come to save. 3Must I forever see these evil deeds? Why must I watch all this misery? Wherever I look, I see destruction and violence.I am surrounded by people who love to argue and fight. 4The law has become paralyzed, and there is no justice in the courts.

Psalm 10:1 Why do You stand afar off, O LORD? Why do You hide in times of trouble?

Psalm 22:1 My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me? Why are You so far from helping Me, And from the words of My groaning?

Psalm 44:23 Awake! Why do You sleep, O Lord? … 24 Why do You hide Your face, And forget our affliction and our oppression?

Psalm 74:1 O God, why have You cast us off forever?  … 11 Why do You withdraw Your hand,

It WASN’T WRONG for us to ask God “why?” “Lord, why this affliction? Why this suffering? Why this tragedy?”…… It’s not wrong but get to a mental place where you trust Him it is for the betterment to come.

Hebrew people delivered from bondage

“Why moses did you bring us out here to die, why moses…”.  BUT AS WE SEE GOD HAD A PLAN – HIS PURPOSE WASN’T TO TRAP THEM BUT RELY ON HIM FOR DELIVERANCE

But there is a danger! The danger comes when we expect that God must give us an answer to all our why questions HIS ways…

we most of the time want to quickly get through the pain we are enduring.

Don’t learn trust God the first time, you usually repeat something else until you do….

We are created to worship HIM – rely on HIM – Trust HIM

WHY ME…. We feel like we are the only one going through our situation…. No one understands me!

Job said:

4Lying in bed, I think, ‘When will it be morning?’  But the night drags on, and I toss till dawn.

5My body is covered with maggots and scabs.  My skin breaks open, oozing with pus. 11“I cannot keep from speaking.  I must express my anguish.  My bitter soul must complain. 15I would rather be strangled—rather die than suffer like this. 16I hate my life and don’t want to go on living.  Oh, leave me alone for my few remaining days.

SOUNDS LIKE JOB WAS HAVING A WHY MOMENT – he had every right too!

JOB 42: 10When Job prayed for his friends, the LORD restored his fortunes. In fact, the LORD gave him twice as much as before! 11Then all his brothers, sisters, and former friends came and feasted with him in his home. And they consoled him and comforted him because of all the trials the LORD had allowed against him. And each of them brought him a gift of money and a gold ring.

12So the LORD blessed Job in the second half of his life even more than in the beginning.

Does God suffer when we suffer? Isah 63 9In all their suffering he also suffered, and he personally rescued them. In his love and mercy he redeemed them. He lifted them up and carried them through all the years.

Does God know what it is like to lose someone and grieve?  Yes – He voluntarily gave His son to die for us for the end result.

Will God help us? SLIDE Psalms 34 17 -19 The LORD hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles.

18The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.19The righteous person faces many troubles, but the LORD comes to the rescue each time.

1:6 In my desperation I prayed, and the LORD listened;

he saved me from all my troubles.


PROVERBS 3 5Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.6Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.


New International Version (©1984)  I Corinthians 10:13-14

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

I Corinthians 10:13-14 (Living version)

The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure. So, my dear friends, flee from the worship of idols.

Breaking the Scripture down: The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience.

  • Temptation = circumstances, distractions (Anything that would cause you to get your mind off God that leads to idolatry or sin)
  • Taken you – Seized you, enemy grasps us and attempts to hold us fast.
  • Common:  human nature, anything we are subjected to including demonic realm; man has natural ability to resist and God is able to keep them from falling.

God is faithful

  • God was able to bring you through it all.
  • God is the only source of security, this has to be enough.
  • If you look only to yourselves you will fall. If you depend on the faithfulness of God, you are secure.
  • If you resist temptation, ask God for help and depended on his promises, then he would be faithful. It also implies avoiding the places of areas where temptation occurs.

He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand.

  • A promise, just as applicable to all Christians as it was to the Corinthians. It implies:
  1. That all the circumstances, causes, and agents that lead to temptation are under the control of God. Every man that tempts another; demonic activity; every book, picture, place of amusement; every charm of music, and of song; every piece of indecent statuary; and every plan of business, of gain or ambition, are all under the control of God. He can check them; he can control them; he can paralyze their influence; he can destroy them;
  2. When people are tempted, it is because God permits it. He Himself does not tempt human beings James 1:13 (God doesn’t tempt); He does not infuse evil thoughts into the mind; nor does He create an object of temptation to place in our way, but He allows it to be placed there by others. When we are tempted, we are to remember it is because God allows or permits it; not because He does it. We are to remember there is some good reason why it is permitted; and that it will be turned in around for His glory, and to our advancement in virtue.
  3. There is a certain extent to which we are able to resist temptation. There is a limit to our power. There is a point beyond which we are not able to resist it. We do not have the strength of angels, that limit our will in all cases, be beyond the point of any circumstances.
  4.  If people fall into sin, under the power of temptation, people are to blame, not God. People have strength to resist all the temptations that attacks them.  In all instances, therefore, where people fall into sin; in all the yielding to passion, to allurement, and to vice, man is to blame, and must be responsible to God.
  5. He will, at the same time that He allows the trial or temptation to befall us, make a way of deliverance; He will save us from being entirely overcome by it.
  6. That we may be able to bear it or endure it. God knows what His people are able to endure, and as He has entire control of all that can affect them, He will adapt all trials to their strength, and will enable them to bear all that is appointed to them.
  7. flee from the worship of idols. – WHEN OUR FOCUS BECOMES ON US IN OUR WHY

James chapter 1: 2 – 4 shows us a completely different attitude that we should be adopting.

Living Translation: Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.

Message version:  “Consider it a sheer gift, friends when tests and challenges come at you from all sides.  You know that under pressure your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors.  So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely.  Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.


natural instinct is to think of difficulties as a curse to be avoided.

The phrase “Don’t try to get out of anything prematurely”  It has helped me understand that God wants me to use every difficulty I go through to develop my faith.

WE ALL WANT TO become more spiritually mature; but don’t know how to develop faith when going through difficulties.

Learning journey IS TRUSTING GOD in every situation….

Trust God even when life is not fair – bad things happen to good people….WHY?

Gen 3:1-5 Sin happened because the enemy tricked Eve into eating from the Tree of knowledge of Good and Evil to be like God… therefore sin entered into this world and FREE WILL to do as we please … sin fell upon ALL mankind from Adam, therefore sin is always present in this world.

Romans 5:12 New Living Translation (©2007)
When Adam sinned, sin entered the world. Adam’s sin brought death, so death spread to everyone, for everyone sinned.

Trust God even when you don’t understand:

Jeremiah 18:6 the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand. SAY:  I AM THE CLAY – GOD IS MAKING ME BEAUTIFUL!

Romans 8:17 17And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ we are heirs of God’s glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering.  SAY:  I AM A CHILD OF JESUS AND I AM AN HEIR OF HIS PROMISES.

John 12:24 I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat is planted in the soil and dies, it remains alone. But its death will produce many new kernels—a plentiful harvest of new lives. SAY:  TO HELP OTHERS I MUST DIE TO SELF AND MY WILL

2 Corinthians 4:8-10,17 We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. 9We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. 10Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies. …For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! SAY:  THIS IS ONLY A SEASON OF MY LIFE AND I WILL GET THROUGH THIS

Trusting God’s Heart when you ask “How long is this pain going to be?”

I Peter 1:6-7 So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. 7These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. SAY: THIS IS MAKING MY FAITH GROW, MY RELATIONSHIP GROW AND REVEAL THE GLORY OF JESUS IN ME.

Trusting God’s purpose – why bad things happen

Romans 8:28  And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. SAY:  EVERYTHING I GO THROUGH IS FOR A PURPOSE

I peter , 4:12,19 12Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. So if you are suffering in a manner that pleases God, keep on doing what is right, and trust your lives to the God who created you, for he will never fail you.  SAY:  ALTHOUGH I DON’T UNDERSTAND, I WILL CONTINUE TO TRUST GOD AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT

Why me? Trusting God when your heart is broken

Luke 10:38 Martha asked Jesus – don’t you care? (demanded things to change by God)

Psalm 89:8  God is mighty and he is faithful

2 corth 12:8-10

Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 9Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Isaiah 43 listen to the LORD who created you. … the one who formed you says, “Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.I have called you by name; you are mine.  SAY:  I AM NOT AFRAID BECAUSE I KNOW GOD IS WITH ME

2When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty,you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up;the flames will not consume you.  SAY:  NO MATTER HOW I FEEL OR WHAT I GO THROUGH I WILL MAKE IT BECAUSE GOD IS WITH ME.

3For I am the LORD, your God,the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.because you are precious to me. You are honored, and I love you.5“Do not be afraid, for I am with you.7Bring all who claim me as their God,for I have made them for my glory.It was I who created them.’”  SAY:  I KNOW GOD IS GOING TO WORK ALL MY SITUATIONS TO BRING HIM GLORY.

We must have faith and we must trust him…Hebrews 11:6And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.


Trusting God to set me free

Gal 5:1  So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don’t get tied up again in slavery to the law.

Hebrews 12:1-2 let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.

Proverbs 2:8He guards the paths of the just and protects those who are faithful to him.

Psalm 37:23-24, The LORD directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.24Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.

The Secret Behind This Secret

The secret lives within you: the Holy Spirit. Not only will he convict you of the rightness of trusting in the Lord, he’ll help you do it. It’s just too tough to do on your own.

Trusting in the Lord—in little baby steps. He’ll catch you if you stumble. He’ll rejoice with you when you succeed.

Trusting in the Lord is a lifelong challenge. You never finally “arrive.” Each new crisis calls for re-commitment. The good news is that the more often you see God’s loving hand working in your life, the easier this trusting becomes.

When you trust in the Lord, you’ll feel as if the weight of the world has been lifted off your shoulders. The pressure’s off you now and on God, and he can handle it perfectly.

It takes more faith to go through something victoriously than to be delivered from it….

  1. We must have crystal clarity on the fact that suffering is not the worst evil — sin is. Yes, we would prefer not to suffer, and pray for the relief of suffering. Focus far more on not sinning than on not suffering. We should have a focus on getting ourselves and others to heaven. God allows us to grow spiritually and minister to others by circumstances of suffering .
  2. THINK in terms of eternity, not in terms of calendar years. Our goal is to get to heaven and take as many other people as possible.
  3. Daily prayer: focused on nothing but prayer, every day
  4. “Our first priority should be listening in patience and silence for the voice of God.”
  5. They submit their discernment to others People who have a long history of watching the way the Lord works in their lives notice that he often speaks through holy friends, family members and clergy. If they discern that God is calling them to something, especially if it’s something big, they ask trusted Christian confidantes to pray about the matter and see if they discern the same thing. And when others warn them not to follow a certain path — especially if it’s a spouse, confessor or spiritual director — they take those indicators very seriously.
  6. Obedience to God – “That’s the excitement in obedience,” he said. “Finding out later what God had in mind.”
  7. Actions would be to trust God and not try to figure out my future.

We must come to a place in God in our relationship where we have contentment.

And not understand the why questions even if it doesn’t seem right, feel right but trusting god enough to know he will work it out for our good.

  1. Find passages in the bible that help me trust God.
  2. Change the way you think that is consistent with Bible truth.
  3. Change actions that are consistent with new way of thinking.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart.  Never rely on what you think you know”.

Thinking how to change to be consistent with this verse.

When I think about my difficulties, I often think they are dreadful and I don’t understand why I should be going through them.  But this verse tells me not to rely on what I think I know. Don’t lean on own understanding.

There once was a farmer who had one son and they were working together to bring in the harvest.  One day the son fell off the tractor and broke his arm and couldn’t help any more.  The farmer thought this was very bad luck.  A week later an army recruitment officer came through and the farmers son was not taken away to fight because he had a broken arm.  The farmer thought this was very good luck.

So was it good or bad that the son’s arm was broken?  It depends partially on what happens in the future.

This simple story illustrates that often, like the farmer, we think we know whether something is good or bad, but our opinion might change with hindsight.  Only God knows what will happen in the future and he promises in Romans chapter 8 verse 28:

We know that in all things God works for good with those who love him, those whom he has called according to his purpose.”

This is why we can trust in the Lord with all of our hearts.

“God knows what he is doing and his plans for me are good”.  I also think “I don’t understand why I am facing these difficult times but that is OK because I don’t have to understand.

Changing my actions.  The same God who knew you before the foundation of this world –is with you, then ask yourself who or WHAT can stand against you

Lazarus story…..  why lord didn’t you come… then unwrap and let go the past…..

Trust always requires always having unanswered questions in your life…  Continue to make the declarations of the Word in your life and renew your mind!

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Days of Strength

I just wanted to let all my faithful readers know that today will be the last day I write my blog for at least another week.  Days of strength lie ahead over the next week and I covet your prayers.  I will be going to India to take 505 children suitcases full of goodies.  I cannot wait to see their tiny faces, their large brown eyes and hear their squeals of happiness.  I will be greeted at the airport by a few of the children and I will kiss, hug and cry as my heart gives them a big grandmamma hug.  I am excited can’t you tell!

I will pray for the widows and hope to touch their lives in some way with the love of Jesus.  I expect signs, wonders and miracles to take place as I stand upon the Word and God’s Spirit working through me.  I cannot wait to tell you all the things God is going to do!

Until my next blog, keep praying for us, our children and Mercy29.  Love to all!

Prayer:  Lord I thank you for your faithfulness and Your Spirit, Your Word and how it reigns in my life, in my heart and soul.  I am glad you never leave us and you always give us days of strength!  In Jesus Name.  Amen.

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Slavery Still Exists Today

Many people don’t know slavery still exists and yet those who do, try not to think about it.  They turn the other way and pretend it doesn’t exist or they don’t wish to get involved in trying to stop the cruelty of human beings.  I was completely unaware of it until I myself came face to face with a reality that changed my thinking.  It must have been close to one hundred degree weather when I met these children in a mining pit in India.  I was hot and I was not prepared for the facts.  There is more slavery today than what existed in all four generations of African slave trade in the past.

As I sit here this morning, drinking my warm cup of coffee and bread in the oven, I am blessed.  I am warm, I am loved and I am taken care of with hope for tomorrow.  As I recently visited India, I was exposed to much hardship and poverty.  I saw the cruelty of slavery.  They have little hope to be rescued and the love they may receive has a distorted view.  They are abused and scarred for life physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

Let me introduce Anitha.  She was a slave in a rock mines in India.  There they dig out granite, slate, and marble.  Now every time I notice a granite table top or a marble floor I wonder if it came from India.  I wonder if it came from the help of children slaves.    The first time we met Anitha, she stood there in front of us with no smile and she seemed emotionless. Her clothes were oversized, tattered and stained.  She did not want to look at us as if she stood in fear.  She didn’t know how old she was but we guessed she was around twelve or thirteen because she was just starting to develop into womanhood.  As we asked her questions, we found out she had been there for about a year.  She was sold to the owner of the mines for around $250.00.  Her parents were as many parents in India who face starvation and extreme poverty and look for the only solution to surviving.  What parents think they are doing is saving their children from living a life of begging, poverty and starving but what they don’t know is the cruelty of slavery and what they choose for their children is actually hell on earth.  Anitha gets one meal a day.   She works every bit of light in a day and seven days a week.  She is beaten if she shows any type of emotion.  She cannot cry for if she does, she will be beat.  During the day, she could be raped by any of the men who also work at the mines.  She must learn how to survive with animal instinct.  At night she is prostituted out for more money.  She has been forced to abort three pregnancies all before the age of fifteen.  She is among two hundred other children who also are slaves.  When they reach the age of 19, they can stay and work for $1 a day.  Many stay because it has become a way of life for them. They do not even know what life on the outside is like.  They walk around living in a numb way, thinking there is no other way.  If they leave, then they face the extreme poverty and a life of begging being an outcast of society.  With no education, they have little hope.  With no spiritual guidance they do not know about eternal life.  They are trapped in a small box as of existence of a rat in a shoebox.

This is Maridos.  He has been a slave as long as he remembers and he doesn’t know old he is.  He is believed also to be close to teen years.

He shows us his small bucket of lunch.  My son asks him if he can taste it.  This brings a smile to Maridos’s  face.  This is his first time to see white Americans and he is curious why we have come to visit this area.

He tells us of stories of two children dying just a few days before as rock fell on them.  Their hands are bruised, hurting and calloused from the hard labor they are forced to do.

There are also stories from another child Hussian who wishes to be rescued.  We had promised to return to purchase his freedom so that he too can come and live in our home of Mercy29, which is ten hours from him.  His freedom awaits for the amount of $2500.oo.  He wants his sister also to be rescued.  His sister who is seventeen is also prostituted out at night and has been forced to have nine pregnancies removed from her.  We also are saddened to hear the other siblings have committed suicide because they refused to live in this manner.  One of the girls we wanted to rescue we found out later that she was sold to a buyer for $5000.00 to go into prostitution in another city.  Our hopes to rescue her is now obsolete.

We met a one hundred year old woman who still remains working there in the mines.  She was brought there as a child slave.  She married there and had several children there who all remain in the mines working daily.  She does not know about school, education, or life outside the mines.

I also asked how come the government officials don’t do anything about this.  I was answered with, “they also are paid with bribes to turn and look away”.  It is a way of life and survival in this world for most.  If you have money, then you have power to run things the way you want.

As we left there that day, there was a hole left in my heart.  We left our contact person money to return later in the week to purchase their freedom.  The owner after several days of negotiating finally allowed us to take Anitha and Maridos out of the mines for the sum of $7000.oo. Many people would not agree on doing this.  They may say we only contribute to the cause.  We know the owner will buy more children, in turn adding to the cause.  By buying the children, he feeds several families and it is the only blessing we see in this however we know the future of the children.  Maybe if you put yourself in this spot.  Would you walk away from a child in slavery?  Can you make the difference in one child’s life by pulling them out of this situation.  My hopes in this adventure and in the future is to save as many children as we can.  It is so overwhelming and it seems like an impossible task.  However, the child we may save, could however years to come be the person who stops this madness of slavery that still exists around the world today.

Approximately 12 million…prostitution to forced labour and childrecruitment into armed forces…the plight of some 300,000 children currently being used in armed…700,000 men, women and children trafficked across borders…   yes, slavery still exist today and it is time we come together and do something about it.  http://www.unicef.org/protection/usa_39234.html

I would love to hear your comments, prayers or solutions on this matter.  What are your thoughts?

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Giving & Waiting

We need a donor who is willing to part with $10,000 or less to make a an entire India village of children happy!  Want to buy a gift this year that counts?  This year we took on a big project, we want to mail 400 filled shoe boxes to India and we are finding out it is no easy task.  You may wonder why I am writing this, but it is for that one who knows how to get the gifts there and reads this blog.  A plea for help is what I am asking.  Have money and want to give in a charitable way this Christmas?  You have found the answer so keep reading.

Each shoe box is filled with toys, crayons, pens and pencils, stickers, wash cloths and soap, combs and all other little goodies that Indian children do not have.  We have 400 fleece blankets to send, shoes for their feet and clothes too.  It is packed and ready to go.  DHL wants 1900.00 for 1700 pounds.  UPS, Fed EX and regular postal service will run around 8-10 thousand dollars for importing.  Going on a ship is the route we hope to go but the things will not make it there by Christmas, in fact it will take around a month to get there, but seems to be the more affordable way.  Hopefully less than $4000.00. I called Samaritan’s Purse and they were willing to take all the items off our hands but there was no guarantee where the items would go.  We wanted them to go to Kakinada to the orphanage there.

Call it what you will, maybe poor planning on our part or the “assuming” it won’t cost that much, however the fact remains, it cost money and lots of it.  We have been thrown questions or statements such as, “You should have just gave money and let them buy the things over there”.  You see, first of all, they don’t have the things there like we do here, and second it is more expensive there and third, it plays a big part here in coming together for a cause.  I have seen people come and support this endeavor to help those who are less fortunate.  It makes people feel good to help others and when it is the season it makes it right.  There is no price to pay for the freedom of the two children from slavery, or the girls from prostitution, or for the starving beggar who we took in off the streets.

I wait upon God to send the answer.  It is when we step out in faith, God will supply and fill the need.  We give and we wait.  I am waiting on a response from you, faithful reader who stumbled across my blog.  Go ahead, send me a message and fulfill the dreams of an orphan boy or girl in India and provide a way to ship it to them.  It is you, who God has called.  God Bless!

Prayer:  Lord you never fail, you always supply the need and hear our prayers.  Thank you for your answer and your ways that are far above our ways and understanding.  You alone have blessed the person who will help us make this possible and open their heart to supply the funds to get our items to the children.  In Jesus Name, Amen

King James Bible Psalms 6:9
The LORD hath heard my supplication; the LORD will receive my prayer.

Abundant life, Encouragement, India, Mercy 29, Salvation, Soul Winning

Expression of Grace

I received a message from young man in which I use to babysit when I was a teen.  He told me there is a message being posted throughout his town saying, “It is OK not to believe in God.”  It is a slap in the face to us Christians who know there is a God and He makes a difference in all the world in our lives.  Although some might not notice, or agree or even ignore the sign, we the people of faith need to step up a bit with an expression of grace.  We must extend God’s grace to a hurting person who has needs.  God will help them through you.  If we ignore the possibilities to help, then we contribute to the sign…..

As a Christian we must express grace and truth in our mission, message and ministry.  God has given us a mission to be an instrument of His grace to others.  We should always communicate God’s grace by what we say and also by what we do.  Your life is a message that people read.  You are an ambassador of Christ in both word and deed.  We must not only have grace but truth.  When people give grace with truth they lose realism.  When they give truth without grace it becomes legalism.  Religion condemns people and is an act but a relationship with God shows true love.

To receive the grace and truth that we need for others we must spend time alone with the Lord every day.  We must submit ourself to Him and acknowledge and obey His voice.  God will impart His reality to us to be able to pour out to others.  The more we sense this reality in our own life the more we will have to give to others.  When you touch somebody’s life and those you reach can touch others.  Jesus said to make disciples and whether you realize it our not your ministry of grace and truth to individuals may have more impact than if you were preaching to thousands.  Let God’s grace flow through you and it will change nations!

Prayer:  Father forgive us when we do not stand up and proclaim your grace and truth through our words and actions.  I pray that we are faithful in reaching others and showing your love to the world.  I pray that all people who don’t believe or even know you that you will pour out your spirit on them and take away the scales of unbelief from their eyes.  Let our mind be your mind, let my thoughts be your thoughts flowing from me to reach others.  I praise you for your grace, mercy and truth.  In Jesus name. Amen.

2 Corinthians 9:8  God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all-sufficiency in all things, may have an abundance for every good work.

Abundant life, faith, India, Leadership, Love and Life of a Testimony, Mercy 29

The Roads Life Takes Us

life has many roadsLife has many roads.  We choose some and some will choose us, sometimes in a direction we are led blinded.  We sometimes choose a road that is clearly marked – Dead End, however even knowing the end results we are stubborn.  We also see a road in which we find curious, unknown and walk forward into a reality check.  This is too, what I found as I journeyed to India.  Life has many roads, although we may not see the end, it is a journey to develop our inner man to be more like Jesus.

When you are exposed to a culture in which is totally different from what you were accustomed to, it really makes you think.  Grateful is the term used to my experience of going to other countries of Africa and recently to India.  America has many blessings when it comes to comfort yet it can also make us very spoiled.  Going on a mission trip is not a vacation.  A vacation should be comfort and relaxing in which you can find rest from everyday life routine.  Missions however are totally the opposite and will definitely break anyone’s pious spiritual pride.  I found it to be exhausting in all areas of mental, spiritual and physical.  The emotional state explodes with overwhelming situations in where you just want to throw yourself down and weep after you have been exposed to a world of much poverty, suffering and heartache.  I found myself questioning God and my relationship with Him along with the effectiveness of my prayers.  However, He has a way in helping us to be strong when faced with such.  It is not everyday, you walk out and come face to face with an orphan child begging on the streets, sick with fever and shoeless.  We may however, walk out and see a homeless person but turn the other direction for the callused emotional state we have allowed to take over so we ourselves won’t be affected or infected.  It is as though we cannot change the world, so why try?  Our own lives become self preserved in our own little world and it is easy to not bother with things beyond our control.  We have the privilege to spend $40 on dinner when the same amount can feed a village in a nation who is not blessed as we.  Our daily thoughts are usually on ourselves, our family and our realm of thinking of how life should be, caught up in a web of our life without thinking about others.  Then it seems when some do branch out into helping others, either you get judged with words of “who do you think you are” or you yourself become the judge of why others can’t feel the burden in which you feel.  It is a never-ending tug of war with your emotions pertaining to the spiritual state of mind.  The only source of reasoning must come from the biblical aspect of faith and trusting in God to lead you.  I pray for much wisdom.  I pray to make a difference we ourselves cannot make unless it is with the hands of God.  It is reaching others and seeing the love of God in the eyes of people who you don’t know.  His love is reaching into, getting infected and affected by involvement instead of turning and walking the other way.  Jesus overflowed with compassion, he wept and he became involved with those who others had turned away, judged or ignored.  He took the road that no one else wanted to take.

Overall, I am blessed to experience what I have when it comes to seeing through the eyes of Jesus with compassion.  If we can all just get a glimpse of this, do our part, His Kingdom would move at a much greater pace.  I choose to walk down the road I am least familiar with faith and great expectation of seeing God’s hand move in ways I cannot.Loving on the Children of India

Prayer:  God, through all the roads you put before me, help me to choose the right ones that will enhance not only my walk, my faith level and my dependance on you but also to help me be more like you.  Help me to help others along the way giving us all divine knowledge and revelation, walking in your power and glory.  Let your spirit engulf our fears and our failures to overcome all barriers.  In Jesus name.  Amen!
Matthew 25:40  “But the King will answer them, “‘In solemn truth I tell you that in so far as you rendered such services to one of the humblest of these my brethren, you rendered them to myself.’Weymouth New Testament

Abundant life, India, Love and Life of a Testimony

Ready to Explore

This will be my last post before I leave for India.  I won’t be able to write again until the first week of November.  Thank all of you are faithful in reading my blog.

I am ready to explore.  I am ready for an adventure of a lifetime.  I am ready to explore the heights and depths of God’s love, of His peace of His amazing Spirit.  I will walk by faith and give glory to the Almighty.  I will be thankful, I will praise, I will worship and I will be humbled.  I trust and have faith that He lives within me, going and doing as I do.  He goes before me and after me.  Let my hands, be His, let my eyes be His, let my words be His, let my steps be His and let my love portray His.  Birth within my soul the love of the Father to reach out into a world that I never knew existed because of being miles away, blinded by the chaotic world we live called life.  I go forward in leaping with faith and joy to a new level.  I will fear not!  I am ready to explore and when I return, I will share His wondrous works.

Melissamelissa phillips

India, Mercy 29

Letters From India

Children in India need us to give and to pray

It is thirty days till lift off.  The only thing I dread is the fifteen hours on the plane to India and the trip home.  I have been trying to prepare myself  mentally, spiritually and physically for this trip.  Although I have a passport I have to request a visa to visit.  It is nice having a son who helps take care of things like this.  He mailed off our visa permissions yesterday.  I was so excited to go to the mail box yesterday and receive $15 for the buffalo campaign.  There are friends in Shreveport who are designing a T-shirt for the Buffalo campaign.  I am so thankful to have people who have given these last few week and who have a heart to want to help reach other nations.   Please pray for the Mercy29 home in India and for the people of India.  I personally want to thank all of you who have given funds for Mercy29, you are changing the history of India and in the life of a child.

I have received letters from Praveen over the past few weeks that I wish to share.

Greetings to you in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

How are you mam? How the fund raising event going on? We all the pastors are praying for you and the team and for your safe journey.

There is a lot of need of sewing machines. If there are any sponsors we can buy many sewing machines as there are many women who are interested in learning tailoring school. There are many girls who are being ready for sale.

Yesterday itself I had stopped 3 girls from selling to the prostitute buyers. I had asked them to give one month time so that after bro Lyle coming through mercy 29 we will buy them and bring them to our home.
One standard Sewing Machine in our place is 7500 rupees to 8000 Rupees that is 190 US $ to 200 US $…This machine will be life time warranty.
Girls rescued and learning trade at Tailoring School
If we need for less of cost also we can get for 2000 rupees to 4000 rupees that is 50 US $ to 100 US $.but this machine comes with without warranty and it may get damaged in 3 to 4 months. Particularly for stitching bags and purses we need electrical sewing machine which costs around 16,000 rupees to 20,000 rupees that is 500 US $.We can get all the raw material for less cost here itself. The girls make clothes, bags, purses, Bible covers,pillow covers,petti coats,blouses,frocks,school uniforms etc..There are many women, who want to learn the tailoring school, but we need many machines and we have to buy the girls and have to save them from the prostitution buyers. After your coming you can see and surely i can say that you will be crying a lot by seeing these women and the girls.

The exchange rate of an American Dollar is 45. Rupees but here in the airport or outside the airport they will pay you around 40 rupees. There is nothing to pay at the airport or nothing to pay to the people in the airport. If any servant like who carries your bags and others etc…You can pay him around 100 rupees which are 2 dollars. There is nothing to pay to any one before meeting me. After your landing I will be there in the airport and I & pastors will receive you over there mam.

As you are fighting and raising the funds for the poor and the fund should be helpful for the poor and needy that is my policy. Bro Lyle knows about that and for that only he was much satisfied with me and my works.

One more is as we know about the widows who are called untouchable women and unwanted people in the society. It is s great curse for them. You don’t believe that there are villages called widows village where there are 800 widows in it. All of them are outside of the town. I had seen them and cried for them as many of the young girls are also widows over here. These young women and girls who don’t have any self employment they are going for prostitute business as they don’t have enough food for feeding their Kids.

These kids are playing on the roads and some of the kids have been sold to rich people and some women had sold their sons to hospitals where the people uses him and after getting into certain age they will remove the kidneys and eyes and these hospital people make use of it. I will show you those places and hospital too where you can ask those people and you can see how it will be… I had went over there and prayed for them and said to stop doing that sin.
Then they can also leave the prostitute business.
If there is any possibility for you we can buy some buffaloes for them where they can get the milk and sell them and they can feed their family with that money.  As we had plenty of fields where the buffalo eats the grass and some times we can give her some nutrition food for less of cost comparing to other places in India.  Each Buffalo costs around 18000 to 20000 that is 450 US $ to 500 US $.  Each buffalo will feed ten children twice a day.  Please keep praying about these widows and remember them in your personal prayers. My vision is to stop them in doing the sin of prostitution and to help them and I feel great responsibility if I had given a chance to help these widows through Mercy 29.
About the train journey which is called the safest journey in India. There will be a safety journey with no problem. I am planning to book air-conditioned seats for all of you where you can feel very comfort. There will be no problem at all. And I also thought you can just sleep in the night in the train itself as they are sleeper seats where you can take rest. To go to Kakinada it takes around 11 hours through train.

Finally I would like to say that, To fulfill the needs of the people in India, mainly for the girls and for the widows and for the children, and for the pastors we need your prayers as prayers are the biggest gift for fulfilling the needs of the people through Mercy 29.There is no compulsion in giving the gifts to anyone. According to your wish and by the Mercy of God towards the people you can.

Keep faith on me and I will provide you good accommodation and food and I had arranged good medical doctor who will be taking care of your health of all your days you stay in India’s promise you that I will not let the guests to be disappointed or to feel lonely among their stay in India.

Hope to hear from you mam.

In his Service,
Rev.S.Praveen Chakravarthy
Mercy 29 India

Mercy 29 Children who need your help

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I Need A Buffalo

I need a buffaloIn just a few short weeks I will be going to India with Lyle.  We will be finalizing Mercy29 orphanage.  The widows are in desperate need for a buffalo which produces milk.  This milk will be enough to feed them but also many children.  The buffalo cost $450 in US currency.  It would be great if I could just wave a magic wand or have a million dollars put back to take with me.  I am thinking about having a buffalo wing fundraiser after church and play that veggie tale song the entire time.  That would really put people in the mood wouldn’t it?  So, here I am enjoying the comforts of my morning coffee in which I used the last of the cream, and when I grumbled about it to myself I thought of the buffalo.  We take it for granted that we can reach into the fridge and get milk just about anytime.  So, if you are wondering why I am writing about needing a buffalo, it’s not for me but for the orphans and widows in India.  

Our children are so blessed to live in a country where everything is at arms reach.  I have had several people tell me they didn’t believe we should be reaching out to other nations because we have poor that live among us and we should help them first.  However, yes that is true but the resources we have here are unlimited.  Through government programs, help offices and other agencies finding help is not hard.  Yet when we look at the children of other countries their way of life is not of plenty but of want with very limited resources.  I don’t know about you but sometimes I cannot look at the children they show on TV wanting you to give to a notable charity.  These children are real and sometimes it is better for us to ignore and pretend it don’t exist than to reach into our pockets to give.  I think sometimes it is wondering if our money is truly going to where they say it is.  Maybe it is not trust or thinking my giving is not really making a difference, but it is.

Yesterday in our services, Tommy Tenney expounded the story about Esther.  She was an orphan who was raised by her uncle.  He could have left her desolate, poor and hopeless.  Without knowing who she would become, which in fact of Queen, he choose to provide for her.  His giving and sacrifice not only changed one life but had an impact upon an entire nation which was saved through her.  Our giving changes people, circumstances and lives.  Orphan children need our support

Today, I ask you to donate $1 to help me purchase a buffalo.  I am asking my readers to mail me only $1 because I don’t think anyone would think this small gift in giving would be too much of a sacrifice.  All money will go completely to purchase a buffalo.  I am on a mission and my campaign is to purchase a buffalo for the orphans of India.  Please mark your envelope Buffalo Campaign Mercy29, the address is 135 Darby Lane, Sacramento Ky  42372  I hope together we can make this happen!  You can find out more about Mercy29 on the tab above or by going to the website to donate at http://www.mercy29.org.  I thank you for helping me with this project!

Prayer:  Father I thank you that I live in a land of blessings.  I pray we all have a giving heart to help the poor and to reach out and impact our world.  Touch our lives in ways that you can work through our hands so we may be an example of your love, compassion and mercy.  In Jesus name.  Amen.

Helping others through giving will make a differenceMatthew 10:42  And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones because he is my disciple, I tell you the truth, he will certainly not lose his reward.”

Matthew 25:34-40  “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world.For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in,I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'”The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.’

Proverbs 19:17  He who is kind to the poor lends to the LORD, and he will reward him for what he has done.